Wednesday, February 24, 2010
So far so good as far as my mental stability. The last time he left I sobbed every.single.night. I am sure that had a lot to do with my hormones leveling back out from delivery. But holy cow is this single mom gig HARD. And I have SO much help from my family. And it is still HARD! So God bless all you single moms and dads out there. Hats off to you.
On top of Jason being gone poor Coop-a-loop is sick. He has had a fever, cough, stuffy/runny nose. He has been on amoxicillin since Friday and seems to be getting better. Poor little dude - every time he sees me coming at him with a tissue he starts thrashing his head back and forth. I think I have scarred him for life in the nose wiping department.
I have misplaced my battery charger to my Nikon so I have not been taking many photos. I need to just order a new one as it has not showed itself like I had hoped. I NEED to get some new photos of Coop up - he is just the cutest!
Friday, February 19, 2010
Today you are six months old and unfortunately we spent the morning at the Dr.'s office. You can't seems to get over this cold which has gotten worse and calls for a round of antibiotics. So far in your short life you have had the pleasure of Tamiflu, Tylenol and Amoxicillin...I am so sorry little man. You continue to amaze me everyday and your non-stop smile melts my heart. You are now rolling over from your back to your tummy. You LOVE to eat your toes. Bath time is so much fun and you can't help yourself from splashing as much as possible. You love your kitty - you smile and giggle at him, however, he doesn't really love you! You are starting to be more aware of other people and you make a heartbreaking frown which turns into tears when you are not sure of someone. This causes heartache to the "someones" as you have done this to you aunt, cousins, Grandma Cindy & Pop Pop! You took your first shower with Daddy and you loved the feel of the water spraying on your little arms and legs. You sit up all by yourself and love your new view of the world. I can't get enough of our mornings together. When you wake up at 7:00am after sleeping ALL NIGHT(!) I walk in to your room to get you and you always have a big smile for me. Once you have a clean diaper we head into my room and we cuddled back up into my bed and you eat your breakfast bottle. After eating we just play and chat for a little while. It is our special time together. You love , love, love your Daddy and during your day when you stop what you are doing and stare at him and a big smile makes its way across your face. You are just so incredibly delightful! I can't wait to see what the next six months has in store for us. You mean the world to me my baby boy!
Fast forward a week and Jason had to leave for work for TWO WEEKS. He got to come home on the weekend but that was the worst two weeks for me and for Jason. Here I was by myself with this tiny baby, not too sure what to do but thinking I had it down. Jason was hundreds of miles away and felt awful for having to go. My mom came over and helped me everyday but I wanted Jason. I sobbed every night for those two weeks. It was the worst feeling.
Thursday, February 11, 2010
And I couldn't stop thinking about her question.
The more I thought the more the same answer came into my head. We were scared to death that we could not have a baby. We were scared that our life changing event would be going through life without a baby. We were so scared about this that we forgot to be scared about having a baby.
It's funny how different situations effect your outlook. All that I know now is that we are SO over the moon with Cooper. Any sort of scared goes right out the window.
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Eating with Aunt RK
Hangin' with Abbey
Hangin' with Shane
First Bowling Trip