Married to the Man of my Dreams.

Mommy to the most beautiful baby boy.

Loving Life and realizing everyday that...

it is All Worth It!

Tuesday, May 5, 2009


SO the nursery still sits like this:


Jason & I can not agree and come to a compromise for this space. This 11 x 14 area has been discussed more often in our home than the Swine Flu (which I bring up A LOT!). That is the bad news. The good news: Jason & I can not agree on this space. I LOVE the fact that he is so into this and isn't just telling me to do whatever!

What to do? Turn to Layla at the Lettered Cottage of course! I emailed her our dilemma, photos of the space, Jason's likes, my likes and I can't wait to see what she comes up with. I will keep you posted!!

Busy, Busy, Busy

Story of my life - I ALWAYS have something to do but I don't ALWAYS do something. My list of To-Do's has exploded so I thought it time to get my butt into gear. First thing on my list - Spring Cleaning. I managed to get our half bath done this morning - scrubbed the sink and toilet with a little brush, washed all the baseboards, washed down the door and cleaned the hardwoods on my hands and knees (Method Hardwood Cleaner smells SO good!). Suddenly - I love that little bathroom! Every time I walked by it I stuck my head it to take a peek. The best part - that great feeling has given me motivation to get the rest of the house done.

How do you eat an elephant??? One bite at a time!!!

Monday, May 4, 2009

This Mornings Dr.'s Appt

Had a routine Dr.'s appt this morning and all was good. Dr. Saunder's was not in so I saw another Dr. at his office - Dr. Wiebe. I don't mind seeing other Dr.s - it is good to meet them and she was really nice. I was really nervous because at our last appt Dr. Saunders wanted me gain more weight. Drum roll please....I am up a total of 6 pounds which according to the Dr. I saw today is just fine! Yay! Baby is measuring just right and his heartbeat is at 160. Our next appt will be June 1st and we (or should I say I) have to do the glucose screening test which checks for gestational diabetes. I don't think I am looking forward to drinking the orange tinted sugar bomb!

24 weeks

We are 24 weeks along as of Saturday and the baby is still the size of a papaya. Here is what he is up to:

Your baby's growing steadily, having gained about 4 ounces since last week. That puts him at just over a pound. Since he's almost a foot long (picture an ear of corn), he cuts a pretty lean figure at this point, but his body is filling out proportionally and he'll soon start to plump up. His brain is also growing quickly now, and his taste buds are continuing to develop. His lungs are developing "branches" of the respiratory "tree" as well as cells that produce surfactant, a substance that will help his air sacs inflate once he hits the outside world. His skin is still thin and translucent, but that will start to change soon.
He is an active little guy - I feel him tumbling around all of the time. Jason & I are going to register this coming weekend - yay! It will feel like an accomplishment to cross that off of our list.

Sunday, May 3, 2009

Possible Pregnancy Brain

I just realized that I haven't been posting comments - doah!!! Sorry everyone - I wasn't ignoring you! However - I did wonder, for the longest time, why absolutely no one was commenting - lol!

Pregnancy - It's not all it's cracked up to be

3 years ago when I daydreamed about pregnancy I thought it would be the most wonderful, blissful 9 months. Full of wonderment and loving my belly. Fast forward 3 years later and...well...not so much. I feel horribly guilty typing this. I want to be the blissful gal LOVING pregnancy. For the past 4 months I have posted pretty blah posts with noting but updates...instead of really using this blog as my virtual journal I have typed what I think others would want to read and not necessarily what is really going on. I have decided to derail from that would of "Cotton Candy Clouds and Rainbow Rivers" and bring on a dash of reality - in a good, productive and honest way.
Anyhow - back to pregnancy. This is hard work. I really have started to feel like my body is not my own anymore and that is just so.darn.hard. to accept/grasp. I have fleeting moments where I am just so uncomfortable in my own skin - I can't really explain it. It is just a feeling of wanting to be anywhere else, doing anything else at that exact moment. I tell myself that this feeling will pass and it always does within minutes - it is just that those minutes can bring on such emotions. On the flip side - there are times that I am just so in love with the overall process and overcome with such love that tears well up in my eyes. Jason does not know what to do with me!
Physically - I am very uncomfortable. Already. It feels as if my stomach sits right between my boobs and has shrunk to the size of a quarter. I just get SO full SO fast which is SO frustrating. I am trying to eat smaller portions through out the day but that really is a hard habit to get into when for the past thirty some years you have eaten three times a day - as much as you want! My skin on my belly feels so incredibly tight and itchy and I just wonder where we are going to find room for this baby to grow for 4 more months. Hmmmm? I just thank God I am not an Elephant whose gestational period is 640 days - 91 weeks - could you even imagine!
Sleeping has become somewhat of a chore - which bums me out - because I usually have no problems with sleep. To get comfortable I put a pillow between my knees and one along my side. The hard part comes in when I want to roll over. It is a job of complete rearrangement.
These are all small things but I think what it is is that that add up to that feeling of your body not being your own.
HOWEVER, at the end of the day - I can NOT wait to meet this incredible baby boy. Sometimes the anticipation is so overwhelming. I am so excited for him to be here and I know as soon as I lay eyes on him all of these feelings will be a distant memory.
Now before you publish flaming comment and tell me how lucky I am to be pregnant after our 2 1/2 years of trying I want you to know that I realize that. I feel that we are truly blessed and I wouldn't change it for the world. However - the reality of it is that not every single women loves pregnancy. I don't hate it - it is just not what I expected.