Our fear was NOT having a baby...

On Superbowl Sunday we packed Cooper up and headed to our friends house for food, beer and football. There were a lot of gals there that I had meet some time back at a stamping party but had not seen since and it was good to catch up with them. I have more in common with one in particular, Jill, because she is married, thirty something, works at a title company and I am in real estate and we know some of the same people. So Jill and I were talking about work, the market, - yadda-yadda. Then the subject turned to Cooper.

Jill- "How did you know you were ready to have a baby?" she asked. I must have had a perplexed look on my face because she continued. "I only ask because some of my friends just KNEW that they HAD to start trying and some are scared to death with the thought. Were you scared about it? It is such a life changing event."

Me - perplexed look... mind racing. Were we scared? How did we decide that we wanted to try for a baby? How did we know we were ready? It seemed SO long ago that I couldn't remember.

Me (finally an answer) - "You know, we tried for quite awhile for Cooper," I began, "2 1/2 years. He is such a blessing to us. I am sure we were nervous when we first started trying...he is the best thing that has happened to us." I made NO sense whatsoever.

And I couldn't stop thinking about her question.

The more I thought the more the same answer came into my head. We were scared to death that we could not have a baby. We were scared that our life changing event would be going through life without a baby. We were so scared about this that we forgot to be scared about having a baby.

It's funny how different situations effect your outlook. All that I know now is that we are SO over the moon with Cooper. Any sort of scared goes right out the window.